i lOve yoU, iM juSt NOT iN lovE wiTh yOu

Goood Daay

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 19:40:22 GMT

well, today I woke up at 7 am so that I could go fishing with Mom, Chad, Travis, Hannah, Marc, Renee, and their kids; Jeremy, Nick, Marc, and Timmy. If you know me, you that I haaate to fish. But it was better than staying home, even though I didn't fish at all. We went out to breakfast at Lowell's in Mendon before we actually went fishing. It was such a good time. I hung out with Chad, Travis, Nick, and Jeremy. Jeremy is 16 too, so at least there was someone close to my age there, instead of my own brother. LOLLL. We built like this sand castle, volcano thing. We kept pouring water in it. Kids, ages 9-16 were making a sand thingy. We are major dorks. But what can ya do? Now, we are at Renee's, just chillin. My mom is like BFFL with Renee. OMG, while we were fishing, Mom and Renee made me call the guy. They literally forced me. But I'm glad that I did. He said that we can hang out either Thursday or Friday and that we could go to the movies or extreme bowling. It made me really happy that he wanted to hang out with me. Which, I know, sounds dumb. He said he would call me before than so that we can make the official plans. Lenora is going to die when she hears this. She is like so excited for me. HAHA. It is like my great gramma's goal to see me go on a date or have a boyfriend. And I recently told her of this guy and our plan to hang out with vacation. And she told me to call her after I called him so that she can hear all about it. LMAO. A 91 year old lady is thrilled. Kinda odd. I really hope that this guy means something by hanging out with me this vacation and not just "friends." Because if it is just "friends," I think I will be crushed. What a typical girl. But I'm not lying. Today was a good day. =]

Laaaaaater. Muuuuch.

Yeeesh.

Sat, 15 Apr 2006 23:38:10 GMT

So today I just stayed home. I watched tv and movies. I just finished coloring Easter eggs with Hannah, Chad, and Travis. It was a pretty good time.

Tomorrow we are going out for dinner with Gram,Gramp, Great Gram, Auntie Linda, and Uncle Rick. It should be a good time. My gramma is prolly going to yell at me for skipping out on her birthday party to sleepover Lenora's. But whatev, I'm 16.

My great gramma will prolly be so excited with the news I have for her. The one thing she always wants to know is if I have a boyfriend. And what I have to tell her has to deal with a boy. So I can just picture her now. LOLL. She says boys are like dogs and that a girl has to praise them because they like that. And that a girl should always tell them they look nice. She also says that a girl will just take the guy you like, not because she likes him, but because she knows you like him. Yeeesh, 91 year old ladies are full of advice. HAHAH.

well peaaaaace, peeps.
have a happy eaaaaaster!

=D

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 19:03:17 GMT

Got my license today with Curtis and this girl I used to go to school with, Kaylee Kach!!!!
Soo exciiiited! =) =) =)=)

Hmm...

Sat, 08 Apr 2006 17:44:54 GMT

Well, I was supposed to shopping today, but she never called me. Which kinda pissed me offf. My mom took out 200 dollars of mine to go shopping with friends, but I will have to wait until next weekend to go with Lenora, I guess. Whatever. My mom is going to take me to get my ears double pierced today!!

Yesterday after school, Andrew asked if my mom could drive him to soldiers field for his game. He was so scared she would say no, but my mom always gives rides to people. My mom thought he was the funniest kid ever. When we got to the field there was a bunch of guys changing, out in the open, like Doug & Greg Crawford, and Rick Skrownski. Andrew was like "Holly, you might want to look the other way." Loll. OH,I did look the other way.

I didn't go the Varsity Baseball game yesterday because I didn't feel like getting wet in the rain. There will be other home games. Chad's JV games start like this coming week. I can't wait to go to some. Seriously, I love going to both of my brothers sporting events. What a dork, oh well.

Vacation is next week. I am so excited. Hanging out with Bestsss all weeek. Natalie's birthday is coming up so I am going to have to go birthday shopping pretty soon.

Thats pretty much all it for now.
Laaaaaater.

Long Time..

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 18:33:44 GMT

i dont even remember the last time i wrote in this thing. its been a long time though. i cant even believe that i remembered my password.

not much has happened in a year. i get my license in a week and 4 days. somewhere around there. i am so excited. i hope i pass the first time.

lenora and i have to have the biggest guy problems in the world. ugggh. i dont even feel like elaborating on them. OH YEAH, AUA 08.

sophomore year is almost over :(
that is so hard to believe.
eww, im getting old. i do not like that.

well, there is not much to update about yet.
peace.

Well...

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 19:50:05 GMT

well today at 2am, my aunt thelma died. she died of pancreatic cancer. :(
when i woke up it was hard. my dad was crying and everything. it made me feel soooo sad.
when i got to school it was blah. i didnt tell magan about my aunt. i thought i would just let the day go on. so we went to play gator-ball with the seniors. as they were tipping off, joe mel pantsed chris davis. man, was the view not good. boxers and all came off. and i saw his bum-bum. :O funniest thing ever, though i did feel bad about laughing.

uhm, yeah so the day just dragged on.
shelley was the only person i told about my aunt.

shell, we are so going to come up with the best skit. BEER BELLY!

outie.

woah

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 19:26:08 GMT

havent updated in awhile. well, obviously, i was gone but then i came back, and was too lazy to do it.

i was supposed to go to alishas birthday party, but because of the snow i couldnt. the rents didnt want to drive all the way out there. so emily invited me over her house. her maja came and picked me up. all we did basically was watch tv, go on the computer, and paint her room. we had a paint fight. woah ... so cool. haha. her mom was a little pissed. but not very.

today was a half day. i had to go to emilys since shelley was still in NH. we went online again, and ashley rousseau came over. yeah.

andrew marshall is such a good friend. i love that kid.

today has been 6 months. :( rest in peace jake. we miss you!

outie

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 16:15:55 GMT

its 11:11 make a wish. i did.

well as you all know im leaving for hawaii. so why do i bother saying this twice? i mean god, all people say are that they are jealous.

thats not what i want to hear. i just want someone other than my family, to say "im going to miss you". pffffft. yeah. whats the chance of that?

now, probably, when people read this, they will say that. but its useless now. just thought i should get the anger out.

because if i was friends with someone and they were leaving, i would say that.

i mean, i know, that they would say it to someone else. but i get jipped.

so-- dont say it now. theres no point to it.

too lazy to say the same thing, in a different way.

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 23:14:33 GMT

okay, i have always officially hated valentine's day. it is the most commericialized holiday (if u can call it that) ever!!! i mean there is nothing special or exciting about it, unless you have a boyfriend. otherwise, its just another day. that's all it is. i dont know why people make such a big deal about it. whoop whoop "he got me flowers" whoop whoop. im such a scrooge. i mean, i dont know, i kinda want what other girls have for a change. i kinda want to be like that. yes, i know how stupidly retarded that sounds. but whatever. other than the fact of wanting a boy friend, i still hate it. always will.

anyways::

we are planning a team sleepover at allys! on friday! cant wait its is gonna be hilarious. everyone on that team has at least one thing that bugs me about them, though, i must say, i am very fond of them. in their own little way. as much as they annoy me, they have to be the group of people who can make me laugh at the stupidest things, ever. next year is gonna suck, the team wont be the same. there will be no laughing, doubling over in pain, from some stupid thing julie and heather did. there wont be the same people that piss me off, a lot. i dont know. i thought i hated this season, but i ended up loving it. and becoming very attatched to these girls. we might not be the best of friends, but we all support each other, and have a liking for one another.

FRESHMEN GIRLS BEAT JUNIORS. HELLLLLA YEAH

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 21:12:50 GMT

i'm p r e t t y- or so he says :)

what a f e e l i n g....

that's what a girl needs to hear,
not that she's hott, but instead, that she's p r e t t y or b e a u t i f u l.

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 00:35:20 GMT

im at renee's house for the superbowl.
eagles just got a touchdown. ewwwwww.
the commericicals have sucked so far. waaaaah. :(

we gotta win.
tom got a hair cut :)

outieeeeee
<333

GO PATS!!!!

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Thu, 27 Jan 2005 19:18:54 GMT

well yesterday was another snow day. but i guess i didnt have to tell you that.

umm, got my hair cut yesterday. i looooooooooove it! hahaha. hairdressers trying to set you up with their sons is funny. especially when the son is hawwwwwwwt.

today was faaaaaaaaacking hiiiiiilarious. haha. omg i love A BLOCK. hahah.

"you hand would get caught, and then you would need scissors to cut the hair so you can get free, you would never get to the bottom"

Syphulous! (not sure about the spelling) Jeez, ashley was having a laughing attack.

i think im gunna get laughing wrinkles before i even should get wrinkles period.

hahaha.

outieeeee.
<3333333

uhmm...

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 19:53:45 GMT

well.. it snowed.. like a lot. which is..ugh. haha.

we dont have school tomorrow. which sucks. i mean we are going to be going to school til June 30th. like no lie.

shell and magan call me a snow iffer. hah.

wiiicked confused about this guy. argh. i just want to be with him. i guess that sums it all up. if not, then go to my greatestjournal.

pats play today. lets hope they win.

umm-- other than that, there is nothing major going on. really.

i just keep counting down the days til hawaii. only a month and one day left! and then in april muy family and i are going to florida!

i need to get away sometimes. friday wasnt a good day, people pissed me off.

we won our game against nipmuc! hell yeah! its gunna suck when the seasons over. im gonna miss it. haha. im a loser.

well im outie.
bye <3333

what a beautiful mess i'm in.

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 00:02:33 GMT

havent updated in awhile. dont know why either. this journal just seemed to have lost its "fun", i dont even think fun is the word to describe it... yeah.

we have had mid-terms all week. talk about "gaaaaag me with a spoon" times a lot.

we lost our game at hopdale, by.... what a killer. well, at least we did better than varsity :D i love heather. so funny.

then i slept over maggies. gooooood time. i talked about it in my other journal. calvin and my dad have known each other since i was like wiiiiiicked little. like 2-3ish. hes like "i have known you since you were yay hiigh, i stopped by at your old house a couple of times, and i visited once or twice at your new one." cra-eeep-eeee. my faj and him worked together.

other than that, its been a blah weekend. the pats won :D thats good news.

..now i'm guessing you know why i dont update as much, my life isnt exciting anymore..

im thinking of signing off.. because no one is really talking. i mean NOT talking- gaaaay.

yupp. i just cant wait til February. hawaii here i come. i need to get away. though i will miss my family sooooo much.

i cant wait til april either. my family is FINALLY going to florida. after 24215412 years off begging. literally.

outie

dont want to talk about it.. though i need to get it out

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 22:58:45 GMT

last night was a fun night,i hung out with stephanie and kelley. haah. good times. there was a dance at the school, and we were there for a basketball thing, so we looked in the windows to the dance and were trying to find my brother. so we made a sign and everything. kelley is bio! :) hahahahha. gotta love em.

today was not a good day. practice was cancelled.. yay. then i had to go to my brothers' game, it was ridiculous, talk about a lot cheap shots. ugh. i was soooo mad. then my day got worse. can you believe it?? well.. my mom decided to go to the bank, and then to kohl's. so i went a long. i got somethings, tried them on, and then my day was shot to hell. i wanted to cry right in the goddam store. im so goddam fat. i had tried on these 2 cute skirts (i wanted 1 bc i dont have one) but i didnt like what i saw in the mirror. i saw fat legs, unattractive legs. then my jean size went up a size. i was soo mad, that that ruined shopping for me, and while my ma shopped, i sulked.

now, i guess, people will understand why i'm always in jeans and a sweatshirt.. because i dont like what i see, and if i dont like it, i dont want other people to see it. now they should also understand why that in summer, i very rarely will be seen in shorts, or in a bathing suit, and i still wear jeans and a sweatshirt. i like to hide, i like to get away from how i am. its kinda hard, being in a family where the rest of the kids are skinnny, and dont have to worry about weight. but im the fat one, im the ugliest kid. im not a blonde anymore, im not skinny, im not tall, im everything i DONT want to be. haha.. im starting to cry right now.

i just know i will never be like a magan or a shelley. so i hate that. i hate being on the fatter side.

outie

no one can change how i feel.. unfortunately

we won.. boo fucking yea!

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 00:42:04 GMT

yesterday we had our first home game! i was so nervous/excited. we had to wear our warm-up shirts to school, everyone was asking us what they meant. well they are kinda gangsta-ish. haha. then the game was at 5:30, so we had to be there and hour earlier. we got dressed and then we warmed up. i thought we were going to lose because my bro's lost to their middle school team by a lot. i got 2 baskets :) and a lot of rebounds! haha. i was so happy. haha. it was even better because we won! 40-22. yess. i was so happy because it was at our home court.. not theirs.. so it made it kinda more special. another good part was that shelley came to the game!! she brought sarah an angela :) that was neat, it was cool to see my friends there, watching me play, and melissa cheer! haha. i <3 my friends!! thanks for coming. our next game is next tuesday in sutton.

then today it was snowing :) haha. well since it was snowing they cancelled every afternoon thing. so practice was cancelled. i called my ma to pick me up, but she wasnt there (she still thought i had practice). so i went on shell's bus, without a note :) haha. then we got to her house, and her dad told me the school had called looking for me because my ma got my message and came up to the school but i was gone, so she told them i was probably at shell's. so shell and i talked online, and did some science stuff. haha, her dad and brett were annoying her.. so funnay. sorry shell. her dad wants to call me Shaq or Shaq-leen. haha.

now im home, doing an essay. HOPEFULLY no schoooool tomorrow :) i need to study for midterms :(

outie

shell and i came up with a hott ladder

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 03:17:26 GMT

x3shellay: 0 (we're not even gunna look at you, ure a burn to the eyes)
ummzie1343: bc ours will be better
ummzie1343: HAHAHA I LOVE THAT
x3shellay: oh yes
x3shellay: haha ok
x3shellay: 1 (ure a major scrub and never learned what deoderant was)
ummzie1343: lMAO
x3shellay: ok
x3shellay: u think of two
ummzie1343: 2 dorky (got the glasses, nerdy clothes, etc)
x3shellay: 3 (average, we've seen better.. and worse, ure a good friend to talk to.. if we have problems with REAL guys, but nothin more)
ummzie1343: hahaha
x3shellay: if we have problems with real guys we'll come to you to rant.*****
ummzie1343: thats was what i was thinking of!
ummzie1343: hahaha
x3shellay: ok 4
x3shellay: 4 (the cutest thing ive ever seen, ure an american eagle model.. there could be better, but ure personality is the best. u have the best hair, and bluest eyes ive seen)
ummzie1343: hahahahah
ummzie1343: hawwwt
x3shellay: 5 (ABERCROMBIE MODEL!! ure closest to tom brady <33 and chad michael murray <33 ure always tehre, and the best eye candy. oo baby, i dont mind showing u off to my girlies!)

looovin it.

do you know much i love my giigs? i dont think so..

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 05:43:22 GMT

aww.. i heart her..

she doesnt wake up.. easily

arent we a cute bunch?

all the giiiiigs

emo-depressed

what did curt do to her? lmao! only 15!

FISHY MONSTERRRRR

we have the funniest convos...

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 00:54:02 GMT

xO bEeOinK138: kayy!
ummzie1343: hahahaha
ummzie1343: thank god u didnt say 3 k's
ummzie1343: :-P
xO bEeOinK138: kkk! hahahahaha
xO bEeOinK138: have u seen the commerical
ummzie1343: shame on you!
ummzie1343: haha
xO bEeOinK138: where its for k mart
ummzie1343: yes!
xO bEeOinK138: and theyre like
xO bEeOinK138: up on the rooftop K K K
ummzie1343: hahaha
xO bEeOinK138: and the ks drop
xO bEeOinK138: LOL HAHAHAHAH
ummzie1343: hahahah
xO bEeOinK138: i laughed my ass off when i saw that
ummzie1343: im laughing soooooooo hard
xO bEeOinK138: i was like KKK HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
xO bEeOinK138: lollll hahahaha
ummzie1343: HAHAHAHAHAH

xO bEeOinK138: baaahahahah
ummzie1343: "bah" says frank
ummzie1343: ON LIVEJOURNAL
ummzie1343: ahaha
xO bEeOinK138: HAHAHHAHAAHAHA
ummzie1343: that makes me think of you
xO bEeOinK138: hahahahahahaha

just thought u all should know.. haha

ugh.. excited.. yet not

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 00:49:49 GMT

today was a blah day. i woke up, and then i had to get ready to go to my grammas and aunts houses. woopeee. no not really. today was hannah's bday! haha. she turned 9, now i realize how old i am.. lmao.

christmas this year is really not as exciting as it was when i was hannah's age. ya know? i mean i know most of the things im getting this year, and its just not fun. where is the surprise? i will tell you where it is, its NO WHERE! thats where. im still excited that christmas day is tomorrow, but its just so different than past years.

magan forgot to give me and shell our gifts =[ oh well. haha. its okay! FYI she is gunna play in a movie with arnold schwartznayger. haha, LOVE that insider.

WE DONT KNOW HOW TO SPELL ARNOLD'D LAST NAME!

xO bEeOinK138: arnold swartshennagger!!!
xO bEeOinK138: HAHAHAHAHA
xO bEeOinK138: wooah cant spell it man
ummzie1343: hahahahah
ummzie1343: OOMG
ummzie1343: i cant spell it either
xO bEeOinK138: hahaha
xO bEeOinK138: schwartsenagger
xO bEeOinK138: i dont fuckin know
xO bEeOinK138: its so complicating
ummzie1343: schwartsnayger?
ummzie1343: i dont know
ummzie1343: sooo hard
xO bEeOinK138: hahahaha
ummzie1343: haha
xO bEeOinK138: yaaaa!

HAHAH lmao

shelleys party was fun. it was good. jac did our make up, i liked my eyeshadow. we opened gifts. I LOVE WHAT SHELL GAVE ME.. ahhhh. best clothes ever. im wearing them tomorrow. i adore what melissa got me. thnx guys.

outie.
<3

merry christmas!!

uhmm yeah

Tue, 21 Dec 2004 23:53:14 GMT

well today was ok. yeah. nothing exciting happened. dont know why i am bothering to even update.

soo.. yeah, i went to my brothers basketball game, holy hell did those refs suck. i was having a heartattack. seriously when it comes to LIVE basketball, that im watching, nothing can stop me from going insane. me and mason (moms friends) were yelling at the refs from the top of the bleachers. haha. seriously, i get sooooo stressed when it comes to basketball, fouls, the refs, anything. haha. so i guess u could say going to their game brighten my day, except for getting looks from the girls i used to go to school with. whatev. they're asses.

even tho my friend says she is not mad at me. she acts it. whatever. it'll blow over. hah.

i have like an online stalker.

this one persons journal entry made me feel like a worthless pile of nothingness.

outie.
<3
wasnt my day lovely?

good weekend.. now not so good.

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 20:28:12 GMT

well on saturday i had lovely basketball practice from 8-10 AM. haha. it was so tiring. vicky kane tripped over me and my ankles went out, and i fell to the ground. i also got 9 out of 10 foul shots in, i was on a roll. haha. then i had to go to my bros intown bball game. i had to keep the score thingy-mo-bober. omg josiah was flirting with me so much. that kid makes it wicked obvious. haha. omg mike zagame was there, and he was talking to my mom... aaaaah. i purposely ignored him. arent i niice? hah. then me and my mom went shopping for my friends. HOLY HELL will i NEVER do that again. next year, im not doing a secret santa, and im only buying for people i want to buy for, like if someone says they're are going to buy for me.. go ahead but i will not have to buy for you. i spent 63 dollars of gifts for people. and i ORIGINALLY only wanted to buy for 4 SPECIFIC people, but then came secret santa and then 2 people said they were buying for me so i fell into that trapp. and that added 3 EXTRA PEOPLE. ugh. whatever. then i went over shelleys haha. omg we had so much fun! we took loads and loads of pics. we preppyied myself. hahah. holy hell i look soo funny. lmao. we had prime rib for dinner. YUMMIENESS. then we took more pics. then we watched stepmom. love that movie. omg we love the song "aint to no mountain high enough" haha. we woke up, went to sunday school. HAHA. omg it was so funnny. then we watched stepmom again, and by the time it was over, my mom was here to pick me up.
i hate christmas.. there is so much to do.. so little money. and ugh whatever. i just dont know anymore. my cousin finally got in trouble about the older boy she was "friends" with. whatever. all i have to say about that is "i told you so."

outie<3

"arm flabb.. it jiggles and it wiggles, it makes me wanna giggle..."
thnx magan!

tiiiired as hell.. kinda smelling like a sweaty man

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 03:24:46 GMT

today wasnt a bad day at school. i had to get all dressed up because we had an away game today at uxy. so i had on white pants, omg! i thought i was gunna wreck them all day! i was like panicking! haha. maggie and i were like doing this clapping/stomping thing at lunch, she was trying to teach me it. i kinda sucked. then i had to go home. i got home, then at 3 we had to leave to go watch the girls (uxy) middle school game at douglas, bc my brothers had one after. so i went there. i hung out with alisha til her mom made her leave. her mom hurt my feelings.. HAHA. then i hung out with zack some. i sat and watched the game. douglas middle girls, no offense, but they suck. worse than we did last year, and i find that hard to believe, serisouly. then they ended, and the boyz started up. by then most of the JV and VARSITY had shown up.. and by 4:45 we were on the bus, headed toward uxy high. haha. i was sooo nervous. everyone i know was there, and i felt like they were all staring at me. hahah. im such a loser. we changed, warmed up, and the started. it wasnt a bad game. julie made most of her 3 point shots. ally did a good job. cassie was a good at rebounding.. she actually can be nice, weird. in the 2nd half, i did awesome rebounding, and scored some points. booya! haha. we ended and varsity started. B (coach) had me and cassie do this thing so keep track of where uxy and douglas shot at, and if they made it in or not. haha. it wasnt that hard, it made me not look at the clock, which made it go by faster. jenna conti's ankle was bothering her, when she took off her ankle brace, it had begun to swell. my ankle kills, i have ankle problems. im like an old woman. hah. i finally got home at around 9ish. ugh. then i had to do english hw. errr. i decided not to do histroy bc im wiiiiicked tired, haha. so now here i am talkin to shelley in a chat, bc im on away, not talking to some people. haha.

outie
<3

ugh practice tomorrow. AT LEAST ITS EARLY! :)

comment on it.. haha.

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 19:32:58 GMT

wow today was a good day. haha. wow. me and maggie power walked/ran to lunch. we still made it in record time, even when fritzy blocked maggie!! ahhhaha. what we wanted to happen did happen. people got pissed. not gunna mention their names. haha. incase they read it. called my mom to pick me up bc gayyy practice time was switched.. what losers. they cant decide!! errrr. sooo gaay. ugh.. im wicked tired. and i dont want to go. i need to get new ankle braces.. ah. ugh, the pain in my ankles is coming back and it hurts worse than ever. im like gunna die in practice. mayaabe JV will have an easier one than varsity bc yesterday JV had the harder on and varsity got off easy bc their coach wasnt there.

omg tom huckabee pisses me off. him and his sexual side. ugh!! if he ever touches me again, i will go to the office for sexual harrassment. the time at lunch when he slowly moved his hand up my leg at lunch was so disturbing. i shoulda went for harrassment right then and there. but whatever. next time he does something like that i will go. i mean if ur my bf fine. if ur not, and i dont want u to do that.. stay the fuck off me!!

outie <3